Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Updates

I'm working really hard to be positive right now, because I know good things are happening and I'm living way too much in my head right now. So, I'm going to think of the good things that are going on with my voice and music.

  • I'm becoming more consistent in The Monk and His Cat on the word 'Pangur.'
  • It's becoming easier to recognize when something isn't clicking like it should be...such as the resonance or how I'm pronouncing something. 
  • I'm becoming more confident with modification, but it has a long ways to go... 
  • Singing expressively is becoming more natural and real. 
  • It feels easier to control my voice.
There are still a ton of places to work on. Practicing during Mid-Term Break happened, but not nearly as much as I would have liked. It's time to hit things hard. I can't seem to get over whatever stuffy-ness I have, so I'm kind of frustrated there, and I sincerely hope that I am able to handle that soon.

I need to work really hard on getting out of my own head. It's keeping me from being successful in the ways I want, which is frustrating. I'm naturally a worrier when it comes to things like this, so I just want to worry about it and control it all, but I can't. I just can't.

I'm going to be honest here: I'm really disappointed with my performance on recital today. It could have been worse, but it should have been so much better. I'm not one to forget words, but I let myself lose focus and I just lost everything. But, there's always next time. I just have to jump back on and try again. It's not easy, though.

I guess that's my blogging for right now...
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  1. Dr. HepworthMarch 18, 2011 at 10:44 AM

    Katie,
    I am really impressed by your reflection and maturity. I am especially happy to see you focus on the positive aspects of your singing rather than thinking too much (which is exactly what I need to be telling myself right now!). I know that you had a difficult time focusing on Wednesday, and that is sometimes ok. We cannot always be performing/rehearsing/practicing at 110%...if we could, we would not be human! Also, I feel that when I struggle with my singing, it makes me a better singer and even more importantly a better teacher when I am forced to reflect upon my mistakes.
    Phil and I were discussing your growth on our way to Kearney yesterday. We are so happy and pleased with your accomplishments...I shared the same thing with Dr. Campbell, the mezzo voice teacher at UNK. She said..."sometimes I wish our students could of heard us when we were at the same point in our undergraduate education. They would not be so hard on themselves if they could." I agree! You are so much further along that I was at your age, Katie. Once in a while you are allowed to cut yourself a little slack;-)
    Hang in there.

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