So I was practicing tonight. And I was feeling like "okay, gonna be productive." And I thought I really could. I did. But I walked out of the room so discouraged and frustrated. I know, we all have those times, we have moments when it just doesn't work or whatever the case may be, but this was ridiculous.
It was like everything I've learned in the last few years has just flown out of the window. My voice was doing things I didn't understand and I tried to step back from the situation, troubleshoot, and fix it, but I couldn't seem to apply anything I usually do.
My voice just feels so heavy. And any amount of thinking skinny didn't help it. I just don't even know what to do. But this is not a good time to have these feelings.
Furthermore, I can't seem to remember just one line of L'ame evaporee. I'm so worried about it. I just haven't figured out what's going to make it click. I would like to kick French from here to Delaware. Yes, that's right, Delaware. And then I'll never have to see it again.
Sorry about the rant, just figured this was a good place to put it.
I am going to tell you what I tell myself all of the time.....Stop thinking so much about it. I think that when you live too much up in your head you tend to sabotage yourself, right?
ReplyDeleteDelaware, eh? You must have excellent aim for such a tiny state (he he). Glad you can feel like you are able to rant....it is so good for me to see where you are mentally and emotionally in regards to your music. Stop in sometime and we can chat more.
Keep your chin up, lady!